Twice a year I and a great team of others from around the state lead a two
day seminar for people who are considering going into professional ministry. It
is the first step of a journey toward becoming a pastor. One of the important
parts of that seminar is sharing stories of call – kind of like Samuel’s. We
bring in pastors from around the state who share how they felt God’s call.
When we use the phrase God’s call, what we mean by that is how they
struggled to know what God wanted them to do with their lives. How did they
know that God was leading them into pastoral ministry? What had God done to
draw them or to push them that direction?
The story of Samuel is a perfect example of a call from God. But most
people’s stories are more complex than this one. Usually they don’t hear a
voice in the night, but there is clearly a leading from God and the involvement
of other important people. So I invite pastors from around the state to share
their call stories with these people who are considering ministry. The idea is
that by hearing how other people knew and understood God’s leading, it might
help these new folks who are trying to figure out God’s call in their lives.
So for example, during these presentations I might tell how I ended up in
My grandmother was one of the most amazing women that I have ever known.
She had 8 kids, and she prepared every one of them to be very successful. One
of her dreams was that one of her children would be a pastor, but that dream
did not come true. My dad thought about it, he met with the supervising
committee to talk with them about it, took a some classes in preparation, but
the meeting didn’t go well, and he didn’t do very well in the classes, so he
went into engineering. My dad had told me all of this as I was growing up – so
perhaps God was planting a seed early on. My grandmother died my freshman year
That was a very difficult time for me, I had a lot of suicidal thoughts.
But across the hall from me lived a wonderful friend, and he invited me to
become involved in a Christian group on campus. It was a great place of
friendship and fellowship, and it taught me just how deeply God loved me, even
if I didn’t deserve it. Through that group during the summer between my
sophomore and junior year I went to a three week leadership camp, where I
learned an incredible amount, but I also had a moment during one of our meetings
where I knew that God wanted me to be a pastor, so I said to God, “Yes, I will
About an hour later I changed my mind, I remember praying, “God, I don’t
think I need to be a pastor, I can serve you just as well as a teacher or a
professor.” You see, I planned to get a doctorate in English Literature and
work at a university. So I followed my plan. In my senior year in college I
sent out applications to all sorts of graduate schools to pursue my doctorate
in English Literature. I even got a full ride offer.
Before going to graduate school I decided to take a year off and earn some
money to pay for this further schooling. And that is where the weird started to
happen. The school that had offered me a full-ride lost my application, and the
opportunity vanished. I sent out other applications and was not accepted at any
of the other schools. I began to wonder what was happening while I remembered
in the back of my mind that commitment at camp.
So again I prayed, “God just to humor you, I will send out one seminary
application. Just one. And we’ll see what happens.” What happened was that as
soon as they received it, they personally called me, and asked me to come and
visit. I did, and before I knew what was really happening I was enrolled and
attending United Theological Seminary in Dayton, OH.
During my second year of seminary, I started working at a church for the
first time, and I knew that this was what God wanted me to do, and it was what
I needed to do. And my grandmother’s dream was fulfilled, and from heaven I
know she was proud of me. That’s my call story.
So during this seminar that I lead, we have the attenders gather in small
groups and share how they got to this point. What is it in their lives that has
made them think God is calling them to a professional ministry?
They share, like I shared. It is a deeply personal and powerful time of
reflection. There is laughter and tears. What I’ve learned from this is that
although Samuel’s call story is pretty amazing – the best call story is yours.
I mean, it is pretty cool that God calls Samuel in the night four times,
that Samuel actually hears the voice of God, that Samuel mistakes the voice of
God for that of his master. And it is a little creepy and frightening that his
first job is to tell his master, Eli, that God is angry with his family and
will punish him, so that their family will no longer be priests in the temple.
From that moment Samuel is a prophet of God, bringing messages of hope and
messages of condemnation. That is a cool call story.
But yours is still better. Because your call story is the one that God has
for your life. Sharing that story is more powerful than sharing Samuel’s
because it is real to you – you have lived it.
Now, I know that not everyone is called to professional ministry. But
everyone is called. That calling may be to be the best Christian business
executive you can be, it might be to be the teacher that demonstrates God’s
love to the kids, it might be to help serve at every potluck the church has, it
might be to volunteer at RAM, it might be speak a prophetic word to leadership;
but we are all called by God, every day. Sometimes it is easy to hear that call
(like a voice calling to Samuel) – and other times it can be very hard to tell
if God is speaking to us or not (like mistaking that voice for the voice of the
master). Sometimes we accept that call (like saying “God, I will do that”),
sometimes we refuse it (like saying “God, I don’t think I need to be a pastor”).
But you are called whether you hear it easily or not, whether you accept it or
Think about that for a moment, how did you get to where you are? Where has
God led you? When have you felt God nudging you?
Perhaps you had not thought of this before. Perhaps God is calling you
someplace new today – and you are fighting it like I did. But you are called.
And it may be time for you to answer, “Here I am, Lord, Speak for your servant
Or perhaps your call has developed over your life, and the path has taken
you many places you never would have guessed, through valleys, over
mountaintops, and God still has plans for you.
Or perhaps you have a clear moment in your past like Samuel’s, or like mine
where you knew what God was leading your toward, and you can say, this is the
day it happened.
Whatever the case, I recommend that you spend some time thinking about your
call story, about where God has led you, and how God has been involved in your
life, because it is in sharing this story that you will touch other people’s
lives. I mean, you can share Samuel’s story, but it is just a story in a book.
But if you share your story, with your passion, with your heart, with your
flesh and blood presence in front of another person – that has power. It is a
witness to God’s activity in your life. And it will bring laughter and tears.
So as much as I love Samuel’s story, the one I hope that you leave church
today with, is yours. Think about putting it into words. Who in your past
helped you to know what God wants you to do with your life? How did God your
attention? What roadblocks and opportunities have cropped up along the way?
Where has God spoken to you, and how have you responded? When did you realize
(or maybe you haven’t yet) that you were on the right path?
Oh, and remember that your story is not done yet. God is still calling you.
There may be something new tomorrow that God calls you to. Never put “The End”
on your call story, until God brings you into the eternal home in heaven,
because until that day, God still may have more surprises in store for you!
Baptism is so simple. Find one of
the most common things on earth, water.
Then get wet. But it is so much
more than that. Bishop Judith Craig had
an excellent visual example several years ago at Annual Conference. She took a piece of paper, held it up to the
light, and said yes there it is. A
You can see them on stamps, checks, extra fine letterhead or typing
paper. All sorts of things have
watermarks. Usually the marks tell us
who made it, and what grade of paper it is.
These marks are there to assure us of the document’s authenticity, they
are also there to assure us of their quality. According to Wikipedia,
watermarks were first introduced in 1282, in Italy!
The term is also used for those marks on online photos so you don’t use
copyrighted materials. In a sense, these say, “These images belong to me and
are not for use without permission.” Like watermarks on paper they are there to
prove the authenticity of the final product.
Bishop Craig said that, those of us who are baptized have watermarks. If you hold us up to the light of God you can
see them. [grab eraser] And once we are
baptized no one else can erase it, though we ourselves might ignore it. It is an indelible claim that God has made on
our lives, which says you are special.
An authentic handmade creation of God’s, you are the highest
quality. God doesn’t want us to forget
A story is told of Martin Luther, the founder of the Lutheran church, who
sparked the Protestant Reformation 500 years ago.
It is said that he would from time to time find himself in great anxiety,
doubt, depression, and felt like he was being tempted and taunted by the devil.
In those moments he would repeat to himself, “Baptizatus Sum” and no that is
not some Harry Potter incantation. It means “I am baptized!” In those moments
of despair he was remembering that he was watermarked by God, and that nothing
could remove that. He was God’s and that gave him strength to go on.
Bishop Craig’s sermon stands as the best explanation of baptism I have ever
heard. It takes what might seem like a weird ancient practice, and gives it
meaning. If you have ever had a hard time expressing what baptism means to you,
if you have ever been puzzled about how to explain why you would want a child
baptized, here is a visual example! There is upon you a watermark a of God’s
grace. Not something that we earn, not
something that we put there ourselves.
But a mark on our spirit left there by the touch of God’s finger, which
expresses that we belong to God and it conveys God’s grace and love.
This is an act commanded by Christ, which bears years of tradition and
speaks beyond what words can express. “Over
the centuries Christians have debated what baptism accomplishes, to whom it
should be administered, and how much water should be used.”
But let’s be honest that is like arguing about the best way to make a
watermark. Should you use the Dandy roll process which uses a wet stamp or
rollers to press an image into the paper making a thinner spot in the paper
where the light comes through, or should you use the cylinder mold process
which is much more complicated, requires rerolling the paper multiple times so
that the thickness of the paper is the same throughout, but the paper is less
dense in the area of the watermark and that lets the light through? This makes
a clearer image and is what is usually used on money, passports, and so on.
What really matters is not the method, but what is happening in the
process. As we are baptized we are immersed in the grace of God anew, and now
we can shout, as Luther did, “I am baptized!”
Baptism, as the rite of initiation in Christ’s holy church, reminds us that
we are forever ‘watermarked’ with God’s love.
So, even though baptism is a once in a lifetime event, we can remember
our baptism as often as we like. To
remind ourselves that the mark is still there, it can’t be washed away. Whether a person received this gift as an
infant or an adult, God’s grace entered into that person’s life more fully.
Can those sitting around you see yours?
Can you see them on the people around you? Can they see that you are an
authentic creation of God’s of the highest quality? Perhaps when the situation
is just right, yes. But perhaps at other times the mark is invisible.
Phyllis Faaborg Wolk tells this story that helps explain that: Mrs.
Detweiler worked at Murray Elementary as the special education teacher. It
didn't take her students long to see her watermark which made them feel special
and loved. Even though she was a special education teacher, the students of
Murray Elementary considered it a privilege to be invited to Mrs. Detweiler's
room. The walls of her small classroom were covered with stars made out of
bright yellow construction paper. Neatly written in black permanent marker on
the star at the top of each row was the name of one of her students. As soon as
a student finished reading a book, the title of that book was placed on another
star that soon appeared directly beneath the star bearing the student's name.
The more books a person read, the more stars accumulated under the name.
Whenever her students finished a book, Mrs. Detweiler made them feel like
stars, themselves. Her ability to make her students feel special and important
was the light of God shining through her.
But even as one created in the image of God, Mrs. Detweiler would be the
first to say that she had her faults. There were times when she let her
students down; times when she lost her patience; times when her mood affected
her ability to respond to her students enthusiastically. Mrs. Detweiler wasn't
perfect, there were times when the light did not shine through the watermark so
clearly, and yet still she was claimed as God's child through her baptism and
renewed each day with the gift of forgiveness. As she gave God what belonged to
God by giving of herself to her students, Jesus worked through her. Through
Mrs. Detweiler, God's love, acceptance and encouragement was shown to many
students as they grew and matured into the people God had created them to be.
As she gave God what belonged to God, God continued to give himself to her,
revealing his love again and again through the sparkle in her students' eyes.
So sometimes the watermark is easily visible, on our good days; and other
times it is hard to see, on our bad days, but it is always there, whether
people see it or not.
Baptism is so simple. Find
water. Then get wet. But it is so much more than that. Because God willingly touches ordinary water
and then willingly touches ordinary persons, watermarking them for life.
In baptism, we are touching God and God is touching us. God says you are mine, special to me, and I
will never let my love for you be washed off.
When trouble comes, shout, “I am baptized!” In your daily lives, let my
light shine through you, show that you are my authentic child.
Every once in a while we have a new baby in the church. And it never fails
that when I go to see the parent or grandparent who is holding the child that
they will say to me, “Would you like to hold the baby?” And of course the
answer is always, “Yes.” Holding a newborn is such a special experience. They
are so tiny, so fragile, and hold so much hope for the future. What wonders
will this child do? What will they be? How will they bless the world? Each
child, every child brings that hope.
So imagine Simeon, imagine Anna, in our scripture today. People who had been
waiting for the Messiah for so long. People who had been told that they would
see the salvation of God come into the world. And then comes the moment when
they get to take Jesus into their arms. Not only is this like holding every
other newborn, not only are the questions of what wonders and blessings will
come from his hands. But this child is so much more, and they know it.
Simeon prays as he takes the child into his arms, “Now, master, let your servant
go in peace according to your word, because my eyes have seen your salvation.
You prepared this salvation in the presence of all peoples. It’s a light for
revelation to the Gentiles and a glory for your people Israel.”
Then he tells Mary, “This boy is assigned to be the cause of the falling
and rising of many in Israel and to be a sign that generates opposition so that
the inner thoughts of many will be revealed. And a sword will pierce your
innermost being too.”
So Simeon knows that the child in his arms is the source of salvation, that
he will reach out to the whole world, that his very existence will cause us to
examine our hearts and innermost thoughts, and that tragedy will break Mary’s
“The great renaissance artist Giotto captures the essence of this scene in
his "Presentation at the Temple." Simeon holds the baby Jesus, his
lips moving beneath his hoary beard, carefully reciting the lines of his nunc
dimittis: "now may your servant depart in peace." Giotto knows his
Simeon, and he knows his babies too. The infant Jesus, far from resting
contentedly in his arms through this holy aria, is responding as all babies do
when held by weird strangers. His eyes are narrowed and fixed in frozen alarm
on Simeon. He reaches desperately for his mother, every muscle arched away from
the old man toward Mary. But looking carefully at the background, we see the
artist's true genius. The child seems suspended above the temple altar, that
place of sacrifice. As art historian John W. Dixon puts it, "This very
human baby is known, from the very beginning, to be the eternal sacrifice for
the redemption of the mankind."”
That’s Simeon holding the child.
And then there is Anna. Anna’s exact words aren’t recorded (leave that to a
bunch of male disciples) instead her speech is summarized as “She approached at
that very moment and began to praise God and to speak about Jesus to everyone
who was looking forward to the redemption of Jerusalem.”
Like Simeon, Anna also knew that the child would bring about the redemption
of the people and she praised God for Jesus.
Imagine what she must have been thinking as she held this child in her
hands! Imagine what Simeon was feeling with the future of God’s kingdom held in
And I am a bit jealous, aren’t you? Can’t you imagine Joseph and Mary
coming up to you and saying, “Would you like to hold the baby?” What a joy that
would be! Once in a while I have led meditations where we imagine ourselves
approaching the manger in the night after Jesus has been born, and Mary asks us
if we would like to hold the child. It is a way of placing ourselves in that
intimate moment where God’s grace is still so new, so helpless, and the hope of
what he will do is just beginning to be revealed.
Cara Callbeck tells the story of the first time she tried this type of
“Sadly lacking in imagination, I found myself struggling greatly with
contemplation, and I was dragging our poor director along with me to the point
that I thought he was going to “excuse”me from the Exercises altogether. Nearing
Christmas, he had me discard all previous attempts and follow this one simple
instruction instead: “Just spend some time holding baby Jesus.” That was
supposed to be easier? I expected the experience to be as fruitless and
frustrating as my prior attempts at contemplation to that point. But I trudged
on, and I am so glad I did.”
“By the grace of God, I did manage to hold baby Jesus in my next attempt at
contemplation. In holding that sweet, sleeping babe in my arms that night, I
started to appreciate the humanity of Jesus. Babies have a way of making us
feel peaceful, protective, and completely in love. There Jesus lay in my arms
fully divine, but fully human, too. Just like any other baby, I could smell
that lovely baby smell, marvel at his tiny hands, and count his tiny baby toes.
This baby in my arms was completely dependent; he got hungry, tired, or just
needed to be held. Dependent, needing, tiny—those are not qualities I had ever
really associated with the divine and thus never appreciated in Jesus.”
She closes her reflection by saying, “I encourage you to do as my director
instructed and spend some time just holding baby Jesus. You can’t help but fall
completely in love when you hold him in your arms.”
[pause] I would add, try it for a week. See what you notice. What does God
reveal to you as you hold Christ in your arms every day? Is it something deep
and prophetic like Simeon expressed? Is it a simple joy that Cara experienced?
Or is it something else?
You see, part of the joy in that meditation and in the scripture today is
that, we can hold the baby. We can take Christ into our arms. Not only in our
imagination, but also in other profound and mysterious ways. Christ asks to
dwell in our hearts, he asks to be part of our lives, he wants us to hold him
within us each and every day. All we have to do is say, “Yes. I want to hold
the baby. I want to have the Salvation of God, the child of hope, the prince of
peace, the light of the Gentiles, the glory of Israel, the redemption of Jerusalem,
the Son of God in my arms.” You can have that.
Paul says it in Ephesians 3:16-19 as he prays for us:
“I ask that he will strengthen you in your inner selves from the riches of
his glory through the Spirit. I ask that Christ will live in your hearts
through faith. As a result of having strong roots in love, I ask that you’ll
have the power to grasp love’s width and length, height and depth, together
with all believers. I ask that you’ll know the love of Christ that is beyond
knowledge so that you will be filled entirely with the fullness of God.”
Paul suggests that through faith we can have Christ in our hearts, that his
love can fill us with the fullness of God. It is as though we are holding the
very Christ-child not only in our arms, but allowing him to touch our hearts.
Now I know, this sounds kind of sappy. Clearly there is more to religion that
just holding a baby. But at the same time I can think of no greater delight
than holding that child. That hope. That very real representation of the love
of God, in my arms today.
There is something miraculously transforming in the knowledge that God’s
son is not a distant memory, not a historical event, but a continuing
revelation born anew into our world in every age. Born anew into our lives, our
hearts. So we can set the past behind us, and move into a new year with new
blessings and new life. So we can re-experience the power and wonder of all
that God is doing today.
So I ask you today – would you like to hold the baby? In your arms, in your
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